Saturday, September 5, 2009

the big, and scary, 3-0

with my 30th birthday creeping up fast, i have been thinking a lot about how much i have changed, including my body. i mean, i still think i can play soccer and softball with 20 year olds but, when i play, i definitely feel my age. it is sad and hard to cope. i am not as in good of shape as i was 10 years ago but still...

i am especially feeling my age tonight. i was over at my parent's house and tripped while going down the garage steps. at first, i didn't feel much pain. now, a couple hours later, my left wrist hurts, my third tow over on my right foot hurts, my right quad and upper leg are throbbing and also my hip, and left shoulder blade. you would think i fell down a flight of stairs!!! but was only 2 steps. 2 STEPS, people!!

there are definitely benefits to being older. i have learned a thing or two. i reflect on how i got to where i am now. some of my choices i'm very proud of and some, well, i wouldn't mind rewinding and do over. but i have learned and am a bit wiser than i was 10 years ago.

the serenity prayer seems especially poignant:

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him forever in the next. Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr